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old, 2021-22 maybe?























































































































































































































































































































this is a very personal drawing, so er maybe just move on. or you can speculate the meaning. not my time wasted :P






















































































































































































































































































































































(you REALLY wanna fuckin know huh? fine. turn off your ridicule/cringe-o-meter and continue reading. i wont get into too much detail though.)

this piece was really just a vent piece, but i still think it looks p good. (though the armor overtop sweater kinda urks me)
i recall this being about my persistent fear about being vulnerable in any public manner, like in a social setting.
despite my (at least remembered) lack of being picked on, i still have this unwavering insecurity present in me. im sure that this really isn't unique, as people around my age are just inherently insecure, but nonetheless it still inhibits me from ever really being true to myself, i feel.
and i guess this art is kinda in regards to that, this armour that i feel i have to wear that is constricting and uncomfortable. its unpolished and awful, and i hate wearing it, but i feel scared without it, as if underneath it was exposed muscle or something.


..thanks for reading







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